Journal #30

- degrading of other races:personally i have a step grandfather who is micronesian and there is so much racial prejudices and stereotypes against their race and I believe that things will change
- how sex complicates things and how open our society is to sex:personally many of my friends talk openly about sex and how its not a big deal.I dont believe its a big deal but it does complicate things and changes how a person thinks and feels.After your first time things in you change and everything is different.
- how religion affects ones beliefs:I am a frequent church goer and I love listening to the priest talk and relate the scriptures to our every day lives. I personally believe of the power of church.

Amber in Wonderland Final

Amber in Wonderland

In the silent nights
my dreams overwhelm the tossless slumber
while Mock turtles, Scared Bunnies, and a Mad Hatter
run amok in the mist between reality and dreams
while you try to decifer the difference

Sometimes waking to confusion
or happiness
or fear
or sadness
but having no sorrow
while all I can remeber is the turtle and his story
about his dilemmas and how we both,
can't seem to find who we were
and why we are who we are.

No longer able to control
wanting to let curiosity and a guiltless tounge loose.
Standing in the room
with the many locked doors
wanting to drink from the bottle or eat the cake too
To gain what I long for more than anything.

Because of curiosity
and a longing to be able to speak.
Speak to right the wrongs
Speak to defend myself
Speak to tell how I really feel
Refusing to hold my tounge any longer
To see me as I truly am
In all my glory.